It is true -- sometimes I get that feeling that I beat my up unnecessarily for no real reason, and get miserable. Then, it takes someone else (like my mentor), to point to me all the things I did right, which makes me go "oh yeah ..", I'm not a that dumb after all. HEH.
But you know what, if there's one thing I've learned from my previous job -- working in a team where I am the smartest person on board, IS NOT APPEALING to me. I specifically told my current boss, during the interview, that I _don't_ want to be the smartest guy on the team.
So basically its an infinite loop:
1. don't want to be the smartest person on the team
2. play catch up
3. go to (1)
So in all that three steps, the standard I set for myself is always higher and I never appear to have "met" my standards. Just like you said.
It is true -- sometimes I get that feeling that I beat my up unnecessarily for no real reason, and get miserable. Then, it takes someone else (like my mentor), to point to me all the things I did right, which makes me go "oh yeah ..", I'm not a that dumb after all. HEH.
But you know what, if there's one thing I've learned from my previous job -- working in a team where I am the smartest person on board, IS NOT APPEALING to me. I specifically told my current boss, during the interview, that I _don't_ want to be the smartest guy on the team.
So basically its an infinite loop:
1. don't want to be the smartest person on the team
2. play catch up
3. go to (1)
So in all that three steps, the standard I set for myself is always higher and I never appear to have "met" my standards. Just like you said.
LOL
:)