Tried any sports? I am almost 50 and started learning kitesurf... it is frightning, but I know I need to expose myself to some level of controlled risk, I was always too cautious, never did sports, and I want to get old with some health, so I have chosen something that I always wanted but never had the courage to do.
About being too late for wife... kids... its never late... the problem is if you visualize this girl as someone young, without prior kids or life baggage. I am pretty sure there are women around, with failed relationships, that would like to connect. Part of the process of loving yourself is accepting your age and everything you lived as a good thing. every bad decision also made what you are, be happy that you learned from them.
People may get angry by this next opinion, but relax, its just an opinion, I can change my mind about it by just reading your answers, but I particularly think that going back to US will not help you, because even if you want to be in a different mindset than the last time, to enjoy better the life there, everybody else there dont have this mindset (with very rare exceptions), so you will not have company for your "carpe diem" moments.
This is a long shot, but you should read about AHDH and see if you correlate. There is a difference between beeing depressed and being irritated all the time and mad about the things. If this is the case, lots of therapy and medicine. Takes a long time, but the medicine is modern and very effective.
Focus in feeling better with yourself and the rest will come.
Tried any sports? I am almost 50 and started learning kitesurf... it is frightning, but I know I need to expose myself to some level of controlled risk, I was always too cautious, never did sports, and I want to get old with some health, so I have chosen something that I always wanted but never had the courage to do.
About being too late for wife... kids... its never late... the problem is if you visualize this girl as someone young, without prior kids or life baggage. I am pretty sure there are women around, with failed relationships, that would like to connect. Part of the process of loving yourself is accepting your age and everything you lived as a good thing. every bad decision also made what you are, be happy that you learned from them.
People may get angry by this next opinion, but relax, its just an opinion, I can change my mind about it by just reading your answers, but I particularly think that going back to US will not help you, because even if you want to be in a different mindset than the last time, to enjoy better the life there, everybody else there dont have this mindset (with very rare exceptions), so you will not have company for your "carpe diem" moments.
This is a long shot, but you should read about AHDH and see if you correlate. There is a difference between beeing depressed and being irritated all the time and mad about the things. If this is the case, lots of therapy and medicine. Takes a long time, but the medicine is modern and very effective.
Focus in feeling better with yourself and the rest will come.