I would start off finding some CBT and a professional to help you turn things around. The problem you have is framing things badly - being depressed/wallowing in how you’ve wasted your life is not going to help you. Movement is vitally important, if you’re stuck change your location even for a summer - for example I would consider if you have the money taking a trip to India and find an ashram (I can recommend Sivananda) they helped me a lot. For $12 per night you get accommodation, delicious vegetarian food and 4h yoga per day (also you’ll get some practice interacting with women) will sort out any of the over thinking you seem to be experiencing. That’s just an example of the freedom you have to still do things that excite you, maybe it’s Machu Picchu or the Himalayas or something else. Get out of your head and make a plan.
I’m far from perfect but I’ve been doing what I call 75 medium hard (you can google the original plan 75 hard). It’s basically a 45 min walk, 45 mins other exercise (I alternate strength training and zone 2 indoor cycling), read 10 pages of a book, drink at least 2 litres of water in addition to other drinks, have a diet with no alcohol. It is starting to feel really good every time I succeed every day and it’s day 18 now. Also if you want to be less worried about your own problems I’d strongly advise reading Man’s Search for Meaning - a book with such astonishing darkness in it that it’s impossible to feel self pity while reading it.
I hope you realise that you aren’t as stuck as you believe and that a few forward moves can really get you back on track a lot quicker than you think. Stop thinking and start acting.
I’m far from perfect but I’ve been doing what I call 75 medium hard (you can google the original plan 75 hard). It’s basically a 45 min walk, 45 mins other exercise (I alternate strength training and zone 2 indoor cycling), read 10 pages of a book, drink at least 2 litres of water in addition to other drinks, have a diet with no alcohol. It is starting to feel really good every time I succeed every day and it’s day 18 now. Also if you want to be less worried about your own problems I’d strongly advise reading Man’s Search for Meaning - a book with such astonishing darkness in it that it’s impossible to feel self pity while reading it.
I hope you realise that you aren’t as stuck as you believe and that a few forward moves can really get you back on track a lot quicker than you think. Stop thinking and start acting.