>I don't think that the number of git commits actually proves anything, other than I commit, code review, and merge code frequently. I wanted a better metric to quantify my feelings of alienation. I looked at Jira stories and story points. In my direct team of 10 people, myself included, I have completed 71% of all story points in 2022, the other 9 are responsible for the other 29%. That jives with my number of git commits compared to others as well.
You joke that you are a 10x dev but do you understand why? In fact doing the math... 71% vs 3% is more like 23x.
So you're a 23x dev. But it's not because you're 23x better than the average dev. You're 23x better than those devs. They achieve nothing and get away with it. Same pay either way. You are 23x against devs who are probably watching youtube, doomscrolling facebook, or playing video games.
>It feels like I don't have peers. I'm solely dragging my entire team and everyone else around me with me for the ride. This leads to stress, it feels that if I am not working on the "thing" it won't get completed.
You are lonely because everyone else isn't showing up to work. They are getting away with it because the managers also are doomscrolling facebook and playing video games.
If not for you holding shit together and getting abused someone would eventually ask why nobody is getting anything done.
You might be frustrated but any amount of holding back or trying to get this fixed will never work. You might think you can fix this situation but you cant.
You joke that you are a 10x dev but do you understand why? In fact doing the math... 71% vs 3% is more like 23x.
So you're a 23x dev. But it's not because you're 23x better than the average dev. You're 23x better than those devs. They achieve nothing and get away with it. Same pay either way. You are 23x against devs who are probably watching youtube, doomscrolling facebook, or playing video games.
>It feels like I don't have peers. I'm solely dragging my entire team and everyone else around me with me for the ride. This leads to stress, it feels that if I am not working on the "thing" it won't get completed.
You are lonely because everyone else isn't showing up to work. They are getting away with it because the managers also are doomscrolling facebook and playing video games.
If not for you holding shit together and getting abused someone would eventually ask why nobody is getting anything done.
You might be frustrated but any amount of holding back or trying to get this fixed will never work. You might think you can fix this situation but you cant.
The only option is to find a new job.