The hardest part of learning any creative skill is that your taste develops faster than your ability. You can see exactly what's wrong with your work but can't fix it yet. That gap is brutal but it means you're improving even when it doesn't feel like it.
It's likely Kakoune, which this post has a section dedicated to. There are also other Kakoune-inspired editors that have this Vim-inverted behavior, like Helix.